Being caught up in everything is terribly stressful. Lately, it has been nothing but constant frustration. It seems like everything is quickly happening all at once and life’s emotionally bashing me hard. It’s definitely difficult to cope with numerous frustrations at once. I really do have a tough exterior when it comes to hiding how I feel, but this time… I completely broke down, couldn’t handle it all. My brian is fixated on all these What If’s and What Will’s. Now that I have to go back home after being away for awhile, I’ll feel more pressured by everyone in that full household. Now finding out that Papa has an aneurysm xray on thursday AND having to deal with drama at home… Including all the general problems people have (School/etc). Oh goodness, Im struggling to deal with all these situations. The inability to act or react is making me feel extremely helpless right now.
I hide behind fake smiles and this quirky personality.
I take the smallest criticism harsh.
Im a bit insecure about myself.
I have to live with a full house and come home to lots of ridiculing.
I hold grudges and bottle up my feelings.
Im acting like a bitch for an extremely personal reason.
I go out a lot only to get away from the emotional abuse I get at home.
I struggle to go a day without being upset.
So for those who don’t know me well enough to know all these things about me, stop acting like you know every damn thing that goes on in my life and shut your mouth. What makes you think you can evoke me with your mimicry and give me the wrong advice to take when you haven’t been there for me once? In suffering and in misfortune, who is really your friend and who really understands you? Ask yourselves that. Im not fishing for compliments, nor am I asking for people to feel sorry for me and i’m definitely not saying I have the worst when it comes to these situations. I’ve just about had it with people who walk in and out my lives leaving behind the trust and love I gave them. Then those who walk out, suddenly walk in my life when I finally drop them. No, im not having that anymore. In other words, don’t act like you know me and go behind my back yapping your mouth away as if you do. I dont have time to feed into your bullshit, I dont even have enough energy to resolve my own melodrama. So please, Im going through a tough time right now and I really dont need your unnecessary comfort. You’re just another nosy person who’s going to give me pity advice.
Well, I used to box, so I have a couple punching bags at my house actually. haha. Or I can just bring my little brother over there and you can have a blast LOL.
You're very welcome. I'm always here if you want to talk, or hit something.
Males and females, Ian Dauz is the most caring friend you’ll ever meet.
Bri chica just chill girl. To lose it, takes nothing but to keep strong and keep your chill takes a whole other level and I know you're strong. So please smile with your beautiful train tracks and just breathe because everytjing is gonna be alright. Mwuah love you girl!! <3
Thanks, boo. This has lifted my mood a bit more, I was seriously going to slit a bitch’s throat though… haha! Love you, ma<3